Welcome. If you found your way here I don't know whether to rejoice or feel sorry for you. You will probably feel the same way about us. I met Kameron this last year and we are kindred souls. I have no doubt that him being in my life is a God thing. Even though he lives at the top of the States and I live at the bottom..and..you could probably easily count our exchanges, they have been wonderful and powerful. He is a gift to me. When Kameron came up with this site I was excited and proud. Even though there is a great difference in our ages...if I only knew what Kameron knows at his age..Our common bond is a Love for God and a disdain for all things that paint him as anything other than who he is...Love. Kameron wanted to make a site where all who have a voice (and all have a voice) could come and tell us what they have learned or are "unlearning". I wholeheartedly agree.

A little about me.
The readers digest condensed version. I was an abused child. Ran away from home at 16. Lived where ever I could. Did massive amounts of drugs for most of my life until 2002 when I became "sober minded." I had God consciousness for my whole life..learned about Jesus as a child. I feel in Love with the idea of Jesus and I guess that is all it takes because through my childhood and most of my adult life he never left me nor did he forsake me. I felt his presence when I was on top of the world or at my worst bottom.

 I have had two abortions due to my promiscuity. I have been "forgiven much" as the scripture says. I loved Jesus (the idea) just didn't want a relationship. It didn't seem to matter to him..he kept "knocking on the door of my heart." I didn't actually meet him until my Mother was murdered.  I was married..had 2 kids and when Mom died I took in my 2 teenage brothers and teenage sister. We lived in a Government Apartment. I was overwhelmed with grief and responsibility. I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Like a crazy mad woman I screamed "If you are real you better meet me right here..cause I am DONE"...I was contemplating suicide. I was overwhelmed with Love and Peace..the kind you can't explain. There was no Bible in my home nor did I want one..when I did decide to get one I consumed it like a starving man. I did that for a year alone in my home telling no one what had happened to me. I continued to use drugs but that didn't seem to matter to him..he was going to deal with all that in his time.

I met some other "Christian" friends and they told me I was going about this relationship with Jesus all wrong. They told me I was missing the best part of it..relationship (partly true) and that I needed to go to Church to be part of the body of Christ (completely a lie.) I did what they told me. Since I had pretty much memorized the entire Bible over that year I was a good candidate for Church (I sounded so smart.) It wasn't long before I bit the apple of ego..and rose to a leadership position. The funny thing was the Love I felt in my living room and that last year was gone..I thought I did something wrong so I worked harder..prayed more..worked myself to death. Still nothing. I had "mad" love for Gods people but none in my heart anymore because I was too busy to Love Jesus. I began to ask questions..of things that had bothered me from the beginning. Is tithing really Biblical..why do we not help the poor..why are the Church doors locked after hours..someone may need a place to live...it wasn't long before they called me what they called Jesus..a drunk..a glutton..she has devils. I left and went right back to the lifestyle I had. Drugs and alcohol and this time with vengeance because I was mad at people and God. Once again..he never left me nor did he forsake me through a divorce..2 abusive relationships and finally a trip to rehab where my life changed.

In rehab they had something called the "set aside" prayer in an attempt to connect you with a higher power. The prayer went like this..God.. I set aside everything I know..everything I think I know about you and I am starting over with a clean slate. After looking that prayer over for a few days I decided to give God another chance. Once again..I was met with that overwhelming Love and this time..he and I made a deal..I would not leave or forsake him. Life didn't get any easier..but it damn sure got better. I picked up the Bible again with "eyes to see and ears to hear." I learned what I had been taught was a lie..and God didn't come to start a religion but to end one. He wants his people back and out of the clutches of religion. Religion is the great lie.."you can be as God." I hope you have ears to hear our stuff here..it will change your life and set you free. We don't have all the answers..we ourselves have many questions and look forward to all posts and comments. Please put your heart out here..you may save or change a life.